12 July 2015

Page 193 of 365: Back!

I am on my holiday, just a brief one. I've spent 5 weeks in Malaysia and there's another week to go. I'll be back to Wellington on 21st of July. I'm departing from KL on day 3 of raya.

Well my classes begin tomorrow but I'm skipping the first week because I really need to spend my raya in Malaysia this time as my siblings are all around unlike the previous years where everyone was scattered on Earth.

We plan to have a decent and actual raya photo this time. We'll also be having raya gathering on my Abah's side on the first day of raya. Oh I can't wait. Gathering= lots of food! How can I not miss rendang, oh!

By the way, a few days ago I received an email from my university and they congratulated me on my achievement in the last semester.

I definitely was happy but am also afraid. This coming semester is gonna be tough for me because I had to select courses (we call subjects as courses in New Zealand) that I don't really like. That's because there's no more Linguistics paper that I could take. Well let's hope that I'd ace this semester too! I have two more semesters to go and I'm scaredddd. I'm afraid to imagine my life after studies.

18 March 2015

Day 77: Affected

Why am I so affected. Everything be like, choose this week to turn my life upside down. Crying in public isn't something that I am happy about doing. But I just can't hold it anymore. People do not know.. they just don't. Well, let's hope these swollen eyes would turn normal before the next class.

Some people just do not know how much effort we put into something.

20 February 2015

Day 51 of 365: Brought to Makkah again

After a year, I was here again in Makkah. It's just that, I felt weird because there were not so many people in the mosque. Probably it's not a peak time. I can't recall who I was with. Seemed like friends but I don't know who.

If only it's true. If only I was really there, not just in the dream.

Probably He's sending me a message. Probably I've been forgetting Him lately. Probably He's reminding me. Because He knows that I'd do anything to be there again. Because He knows I'm so attached to the two Holy Lands. Probably He's telling me to do good deeds, avoid bad ones and keep repenting so that He'd take me to Saudi Arabia again.

I love His reminder. He's the Most Merciful. He teaches me in my sleep. He didn't do it the hard way. Probably because I'm that type who learns better with slow talks, not otherwise.

Allah, make me strong. Make it easy for me to be close to You. Make it hard for me to be distant from You. Forgive my wrongdoings, my sins, purify my heart and please let me be Your guest again. I'm missing al-Haramain so much.