20 February 2015

Day 51 of 365: Brought to Makkah again


After a year, I was here again in Makkah. It's just that, I felt weird because there were not so many people in the mosque. Probably it's not a peak time. I can't recall who I was with. Seemed like friends but I don't know who.

If only it's true. If only I was really there, not just in the dream.

Probably He's sending me a message. Probably I've been forgetting Him lately. Probably He's reminding me. Because He knows that I'd do anything to be there again. Because He knows I'm so attached to the two Holy Lands. Probably He's telling me to do good deeds, avoid bad ones and keep repenting so that He'd take me to Saudi Arabia again.

I love His reminder. He's the Most Merciful. He teaches me in my sleep. He didn't do it the hard way. Probably because I'm that type who learns better with slow talks, not otherwise.

Allah, make me strong. Make it easy for me to be close to You. Make it hard for me to be distant from You. Forgive my wrongdoings, my sins, purify my heart and please let me be Your guest again. I'm missing al-Haramain so much.

08 February 2015

Page 38 of 365: 365 days ago


"Baik-baik jalan, jumpa lagi"

Jeddah International Airport, local time about 4pm.

02 February 2015

Page 33 or 365: Plan ahead


This is what I have in mind. I want to do everything while I am young. If only I didn't need to work with MARA, I might migrate earlier than this. But I don't mind. Working with MARA is important too. Firstly, MARA sponsors my studies abroad. Secondly, I need to collect some money for the plan within the first time gap. Thirdly, I need working experience before I can work in the Middle East.

I pray that this life plan is blessed and granted. I have my own reasons why do I choose the Arab world or the Middle East. Another thing! I was having a hard time deciding on the number of years should I stay there. 3 is nice because I don't have to be away from home for so long. But, 5 years is more ideal if I want to quit working and be a full time housewife after 2026.

What do you think? Did I miss anything?